One Month

A month ago today we lost our son. Today was very difficult, I figured it would be because it started to hit my on Monday. I worked from home because I didn’t think I’d be able to make it through the day without breaking down.

I was right.

Things have been going forward, but it’s been really tough. Today my wife took care of some of the business side of things dealing with an insurance company and as usual she did a bang up job and it looks like things won’t be an issue (*whew* because it would have been really expensive otherwise). This side of things really sucks. Things need to get done, but it’s hard to think about them.

On Mother’s Day we hosted lunch. My parents, my brother’s family and Jon’s girlfriend came over. Everything went well. The food turned out good (I grilled some steaks and everybody went home with leftovers) and the talk was good. Little Audrey explored our backyard and loved sniffing the flowers. I’m glad Emily came over, it was really good to see her and she’ll always be family. I’m glad we decided to stay in this year, it was much more comfortable. Family is so important now, I know I wouldn’t be able to able to get through as well as I am without them, although they’d say I’m not dealing with it yet, which is probably true.

It was still a very tough day for everybody though. I know it was for my wife and I can only imagine how my mom dealt with it (considering she just lost her mom less than two weeks ago). The day started out “normal” for us, then we started cleaning up. It was then that I went to my wife, and while holding back tears, told her: “Happy Mother’s Day.” We just held each other and cried a bit. It was tough, but we love each other and got through it together.

I’m already dreading Father’s Day…

3 Responses to “One Month”

  1. wildvol Says:

    I’m glad you are back to writing. You are in my thoughts.


  2. Albatross Says:

    Words cannot encompass how terrible I feel for you all.

  3. sirfwalgman Says:

    I still don’t know what to say. You are in my thoughts.

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